Sometimes You Want To Take A Stick to Time's Face

Does a clock count as that face?


Five months and counting since I was here last.

I'm completely unsatisfied with my life.

From the last time I was here, Life has been my arch nemesis.

I got horribly sick, warned by WB for filesharing I DIDN'T do, couldn't finish my novel, and that was all in the span of about two weeks.


Whenever I start to feel better about the world, someone has to prove me wrong, has to prove that humanity really ISN'T that great of a thing.


Example 1: Roommate from Hell.

Example 2: Every friend I have, using and abusing me, even if they don't realize it.

Example 3: I don't have the time to write because I go to UC Effing Berkeley.

Example 4: No one listening to me when I ask them to stop something, and having to tread carefully to still not hurt their feelings.

When I tell you NO, you cannot have something, because I DON'T have the money to pay for everyone's food, shouldn't that give you a hint?

I'm tired of looking at a future where I give everything up for something I'm completely unsure of. Do I really want to move it Oregon? What if I don't?

And you know, if you're not gonna put any effort into something.... Then neither am I. I'm tired of carrying everyone's weight on my own back and letting you take the credit for it. I'm done, good luck finishing off the year.

Next year will be me, my classes, Archery, a job/tutoring, and writing. I need to do right by me.


I'm getting sick of doing it all for all of you.
But will I ever really change?